Looking back there is no doubt that I have tried to take advantage of previous partners. Driven by poor mental health and low self esteem I have, at times, attempted to control my partners in some desperate attempt to preserve my masculinity and to stop them from thriving and in turn highlighting just how lost and low I had become.
I am now strong enough to acknowledge my behaviour, make good decisions in new relationships and break the cycle. At the time it felt natural to try and control a life in which I was unhappy and spiralling out of control. I’m not sure how much I realised I was doing it. Now I see how wrong and awful it must have been to the people closest to me.
The trouble is we are too afraid to look too hard at our own behaviour, it is much easier to find fault with the people around us. Be honest with yourself and change what needs changing - the truth will always set you free.